Is this girl just playing with my mind?

me and this girl dated for a year off and on. and when we would break up she would go do things with guys she said she wouldn't. but at the same time she still said she loved me she just scared of commitment. and i know i messed up big time when i cheated a month into our relationship(and i didnt really want to cheat this girl said she wanted to talk so we did she gave me a hug cause we were good friends and then she kissed me i pushed away) then things were good for a while when we got back together, till she keep hanging out with some guy she use to have feeling for and i would get mad so we broke up again and a week later we got back together.(they ended up making out over that week) then they stop talking to him and things were good between us but she wasnt as happy cause she said she did have a good friend to talk to and she said i cant talk to you about you. so we dated for like 3 months where things were good. but then she says that shes scared i could be the one. so she said we need a break so we took a break. during this break i couldnt sleep and i didnt like to eat and friends told me i looked sick all the time. but we still talked and did things during this break so idk why it bugged me. we end up getting back together. i find out that during that time she made-out with some dude and ended up given so other dude a hicky. she said she was sorry. we break up again a for a long time but we still hung and did things and still said we loved each other but she did things with other guys as well(keep in mind during this time i was going though some bad things with family. so i would get mad at the things she did with these guys and would blow up and get mad but i never hit her or anything like that but i really only got mad over other guys.) so one night i run away from home and she hides me in her house i get sent away the next day and then she starts saying she knows what she wants now and that she wants to be with we and that she loves me. then about to weeks later she says its 2 hard on her and that she cant handle me being 2 hours away.(but we made promises to each other that we wouldnt date other people and things why i was gone for the rest of the school year and we wouldnt go to prom if we were asked. i knew my good friend at the time liked her so i told to promises that nothing would happen she did) but cause it was to hard and she wonted to get her mind off me thats what she says shes now dating him. but still calls me behind his back sometimes. and has said she loves me and cares about me. i love this girl i would pry take a bullet for her. i almost went to jail for her when her mom threaten to call the cops on me if i would come see her cause she called me crying cause her mom and her were fighting. i dont know what to do i love her but i dont know how she really feels cause she wants me to come back even though shes with that other dude. i dont know what to do at all? am i just getting my mind messed with. if you say i should ended things how do you just forget about someone you care about.Is this girl just playing with my mind?
Well i can tell you shes just using you by the looks ';/ she doesnt want a serious relationship and just wants to play around but she doesnt want to let go of you incase she has noone else youll always there for her...


youre lettin her go on breaks with you ...she PLANS to get with so and so and so and so ....she doesnt want to cheat soo she goes on a break to do what she wants


look at it like this ....if you go on a break and she shags someone then comes back has sex with you goes on a break again to shag someone else ...would you let her do that ? nooo soo why you lettin her play with you and treat you like crap


your worth more and i bet lots of girls would be proud to call you their boyfriend


itll be hard gettin over her but with time it will work and for all you know someone else will walk your way :)





hope i helped